We lost our first fish, Goldie, yesterday and Alyssa was sad but very brave (no pictures, please). She is now buried in the front yard with the roses. Alyssa made her a headstone with a magic marker and a rock, very sweet. She wanted Drew to dig Goldie up right after she was buried to see if she had gone to Heaven already, but she was still there. She's asked some thoughtful questions about death this week like, "If we hold hands can we all go together?" She said she didn't want to be here alone. Oh, the guilt an only child can place upon your heart! Piper welcomed a newborn baby boy into her family yesterday and Hali's mom is expecting a baby boy in July. Alyssa says she would like a little sister! It's hard to explain that you're old to a child and that you couldn't possibly love another child as much as you love her (I know this isn't true!). Or the real truth, that God's plan for your family is to only have one child and that God has been more than clear about this! I'm a little sad for her today, for a lot of reasons but mostly because she is sad and has a want that is impossible for Momma and Dada to fulfill. Well, William is still alive and seems to be fine and we have another soccer game to play. The world doesn't stop for your pain - off we go!
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